Reflection

Have you felt annoyed just by looking at yourself in the mirror? I know I am not perfect and I am comfortable with it, that just shows that I am human. But it does weight much more when the imperfections were pointed out by someboday that I care. I guess it is just part of human nature to be more affected by...flaws rather than beauty...mistakes than success...absence rather than presence. And being me, always trying to please everybody it does make me sad. Call me emotional freak but this is just me, if I can accept people as who they are then why is it hard for people to accept me as I am...respect my choices, appreciate my being and love me for being me.

P/S: I am fine but not so fine

7 things about me

By request of a dear friend, I am obliged to complete this test..hehe. Maybe I am limping with my left leg that is still not quite awake but these fingers can still dance on the keyboard.

7 random facts about me:

1. Old school romantic - love spending time with schatz; good conversation, laughs and sweet promises over dinner, ice cream or even a kuih koci
2. A major crybaby - when I am sad I cry, when I am happy I cry, when I am confuse I cry, when I am in pain I cry, when I am laughing I cry...go figure
3. Inconsistent centre of gravity - historical places; longkang in front of my house at 2, the small hill at the corner of my house at 10, biology lab at 15, Pangkor Island at 20, my room at 26..I do not need to get into zero G room to go tumbling around like a helium balloon
4. Loves staying home with mi familia - watching tv, chatting away over breakfast, lunch and dinner, shopping for groceries or stuffs, fooling around...
5. Still searching a life long career instead of a job - everytime people ask me is this your life ambition, I would smile and say I stumbled upon this line of work
6. Enjoys fun and adventure rides in theme parks - i love those thrill rides and dreaming to go to Disneyland
7. Wondering when my time will come - yes, I am traditionalist that wants to get married despite the aloofness in me ;)

7 things that scare me:

1. Horror movies - can't stand it, too much suspense, sound effect, blood and gore
2. Reptiles - snakes, lizards, iguanas etc..I am into fuzzy cuddly animals
3. Losing my loved ones; family, schatz and friends
4. Losing my 6 senses
5. Ignorance and hipocrisy - honestly, this is scary but I can be found guilty in many ways
6. Sight of blood and cuts - cannot tahan, sure faint one
7. Going to Hell

7 random music at the moment:

1. Sampai Syurga - Super Faizal
2. Touch My Body - Mariah Carey
3. Love In This Club - Usher
4. 11 Januari - Gigi
5. Sempurna - Andra & the Backbone
6. Smooth Operator - Sade
7. Right Here Waiting - Richard Marx

7 things I treasure the most (material things):

1. My handphone - staying connected
2. My laptop - for work and leisure
3. My timepiece - masa itu emas
4. My Mini Kelisa - speed demon
5. My handbags - beg ajaib that fits 1001 things like Doraemon
6. My home - that is where the heart is
7. My Friendster and Facebook - it is hard to remain in touch with friends without them

7 "first time" things I ever did:

1. Hiking up a stretch of Banjaran Titiwangsa
2. Flying fox down a 4 storeys building
3. Made a decision that costs me my dearest friends
4. Got into an accident and had a b*tch fit on MRR2 ( not sure whether it was intimidating or entertaining for the other party)
5. Joining a 4WD expedition into the heart of an Orang Asli village
6. Performed Umrah with my parents at the age of 12
7. Going on a navy ship near Selat Melaka

Simply beautiful

Dedicated to my dearest...Schatz & Mak

Kau begitu sempurna
Dimataku kau begitu indahkau membuat diriku
akan slalu memujamu

Disetiap langkahku
Kukan slalu memikirkan dirimu
Tak bisa kubayangkan hidupku tanpa cintamu

Janganlah kau tinggalkan diriku
Takkan mampu menghadapi semua
Hanya bersamamu ku akan bisa

Kau adalah darahku
Kau adalah jantungku
Kau adalah hidupku
Lengkapi diriku
Oh sayangku, kau begitu
Sempurna.. Sempurna..

Kau genggam tanganku
Saat diriku lemah dan terjatuh
Kau bisikkan kata dan hapus semua sesalku

The confident and perasan "ruling National Front coalition"

KUALA LUMPUR, Malaysia (AP) -- An international human rights group said Wednesday it fears Malaysians will not get a fair vote in this week's general elections because of an uneven playing field favoring the ruling National Front coalition.
New York-based Human Rights Watch urged Malaysia to eradicate bias from the electoral process. Opposition and activist groups say the process is rife with irregularities.
Malaysian law minister Nazri Abdul Aziz denied the allegations, accusing Human Rights Watch of discrediting the elections because "they know the National Front will win."
"To me, Human Rights Watch is biased. They are not important at all. It's only their opinion," he told The Associated Press. - CNN

I put my hands up to the minister who have further humiliate our credibility as a democratic country, which supposed to honor human rights and freedom of choice. Vote for Malaysia, vote for ... those who take the people's opinion seriously.

I am broke but I am happy

Shopoholic in me take centre stage this month at extraterestial level. This is evident when I checked my Maybank2U today, suddenly my eyes were a bit blur and 28th January seems light years away. I started counting my net salary and claims to be cleared by tomorrow so I can at least say I am not drained out yet. This is the biggest deficit I have incurred throughout my years of earning my own digits but I am happy and contented.
Confused? I am happy and contented because I think I have spent it the right way. MHMN quoted; menuju ke jalan kebenaran. I bought stuffs for my new room and helped out my parents with decorating mi casa. I must say that the deficit that I incurred brought high ROI (Return on Investment) because it made everybody happy. Nothing else matters.
Anyway, I have made a silent promise to myself not to spend too much next month..hmmm, maybe at least for the next few weeks or...I can slot in few new dresses but... I must have that shoe then... I need to replenish my make up... also how about the upcoming movies and again...my sudden craving for cakes...Opps I did it Again!

Rumahku Syurgaku

My house is currently under major reconstruction. After a long wait, it is time for us to move on into a new chapter of our lives. The renovation represents many things to my family. In short, it symbolizes....

• Fruit of my parents long hard work earning a living
• Making way for a bigger family with me and my siblings, all grown up
• Undying faith and preseverance of our family, after going through many challenges all these years
• Realization of a dream to have a better place to call "Home Sweet Home"

It was not easy making it happen. It has been 6months and my house is still work in progress, and there are more drama in renovating my house compared to a Spanish telenovela. Me and my sis lost our old rooms that caused us to move out in Aug '07. So we slept in the living room and practically lived there, we had to bear our brothers late night watching football matches, breathing dusts from the construction work, studying for exams and lots more. Apart from becoming a refugee, our lives went on as usual.

Then we had the major drama with our contractor that tried to cheat us. Thankfully, my dad was wise enough to keep things formal and documented. Things got worse and serious when dangerous threats came in, forcing my parents to lodge a police report and pursuing the matter in court. Who would have thought someone that my parents used to call friends turn out to be monsters. I guess, friendship woes span all ages from schooldays up to the days we are supposed to be mature adults. My family suffered but we are resilient in keeping it together, the most important thing it got us closer and appreciate the importance of being a family evenmore.

Although, the house is not completed yet but looking at it and remembering how much love and effort that my family has put into it making it "bigger" than it actually is.

Still deciphering...

When RC circuit have the positive and negative charge just like me and you, the voltage will be the same but when we become parallel, there is resistance which is against the current flow of our friendship and since the ammeter will show my level of knowing you, that’s why I will come to you to complete the circuit of your life – MHMN